[It's odd to hear something like that from him- for several reasons. The first being Chrollo's own acceptance of death that Hisoka's rather aware of. How couldn't he be? With how willing Chrollo was to defend his 'friends', how willing he was to go after Kurapika after seeing what he was capable of- and how he willingly spends this much time with him, someone who's not at all secretive about how he wants to end the Troupe Leader.]
[Then there's just- who he's saying it to in general.]
[Hisoka's not naive to how he can be, he knows he has issues, knows that he hardly deserves anyone to say that to him. He isn't bothered by it, and has never sought out someone to care or feel anything should he endanger himself, should he even die. So to hear it like that- it's weird.]
[He's frowning when and if Chrollo looks down, not really sure of his reply for a few moments before finally looking forward again, still slumped back against him and not about to move.]
At least you have help now, should I disappear. [Because that's- the main issue right. What makes the most sense anyway. He has Uvogin's company, an enhancer, simple at times, in ability, but strong, useful, capable. Maybe his mind is just- purposely avoiding any other reasons. Or trying to- for some reason his gut feels unsettled again.]
no subject
[Then there's just- who he's saying it to in general.]
[Hisoka's not naive to how he can be, he knows he has issues, knows that he hardly deserves anyone to say that to him. He isn't bothered by it, and has never sought out someone to care or feel anything should he endanger himself, should he even die. So to hear it like that- it's weird.]
[He's frowning when and if Chrollo looks down, not really sure of his reply for a few moments before finally looking forward again, still slumped back against him and not about to move.]
At least you have help now, should I disappear. [Because that's- the main issue right. What makes the most sense anyway. He has Uvogin's company, an enhancer, simple at times, in ability, but strong, useful, capable. Maybe his mind is just- purposely avoiding any other reasons. Or trying to- for some reason his gut feels unsettled again.]