[While he can understand what he means in his own way, he can't- understand it in the way Chrollo is saying it. Revenge for his legs, for not just his legs- for people he cared about, took interest in. Doing it for them despite his own safety and well being. it was- frustrating. Of course he knew he would act this away upon Kurapika's arrival, but he didn't think it's be so quick to come up.]
[There is silence on his end. He's strangely, at a loss for words for a while.]
[Ultimately his own interests are in his mind. Doesn't want to wait, but then, for their fight? He'd already be waiting, wouldn't he? So then he's speaking like this to him to further- whatever they have now. Whatever they've... been doing. Isn't that right? It's weird to think about it like that, and for some reason it's coming to him a lot harder than it should. But then- he'd be waiting anyway so this is-]
Dying for here? Then what is death here if it's not an end? Just a means to punish yourself? [A breath, closing his eyes.] I don't want you to go to prison.
[The most- sincere thing he's ever said, perhaps to Chrollo or to- anyone. But isn't- concern to some degree born out of selfishness anyway? He doesn't know how to express how difficult this situation is, or how frustrated it's making him feel, let alone try to speak in a way that actually stops the other man from springing into a most likely- death trap, should Kurapika's powers still work as they did.]
[So death, then, if he won? Prison. Meaning he'd most likely end up behind bars, or glass, away. And he wouldn't be able to work with him, help him gain abilities, wouldn't be able to see him and speak to him. He's been spoiled by how much he's been around him, Chrollo usually disappearing after the Troupe jobs, but here? That's all he's seen has been Chrollo. Chrollo Chrollo Chrollo. Without a fight but in the future, constantly seeing him and being impressed by him and basking in him. Missing him in as way that's- confusing and selfish and incredibly frustrating.]
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[There is silence on his end. He's strangely, at a loss for words for a while.]
[Ultimately his own interests are in his mind. Doesn't want to wait, but then, for their fight? He'd already be waiting, wouldn't he? So then he's speaking like this to him to further- whatever they have now. Whatever they've... been doing. Isn't that right? It's weird to think about it like that, and for some reason it's coming to him a lot harder than it should. But then- he'd be waiting anyway so this is-]
Dying for here? Then what is death here if it's not an end? Just a means to punish yourself? [A breath, closing his eyes.] I don't want you to go to prison.
[The most- sincere thing he's ever said, perhaps to Chrollo or to- anyone. But isn't- concern to some degree born out of selfishness anyway? He doesn't know how to express how difficult this situation is, or how frustrated it's making him feel, let alone try to speak in a way that actually stops the other man from springing into a most likely- death trap, should Kurapika's powers still work as they did.]
[So death, then, if he won? Prison. Meaning he'd most likely end up behind bars, or glass, away. And he wouldn't be able to work with him, help him gain abilities, wouldn't be able to see him and speak to him. He's been spoiled by how much he's been around him, Chrollo usually disappearing after the Troupe jobs, but here? That's all he's seen has been Chrollo. Chrollo Chrollo Chrollo. Without a fight but in the future, constantly seeing him and being impressed by him and basking in him. Missing him in as way that's- confusing and selfish and incredibly frustrating.]